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LOVEMYWEEKEND!♥

2010-09-26T23:18:00.008+08:00

Last min F1 with daddy,practise round on friday,qualifying/placing round on saturday and the F1 race today!And for the race today the only thing i got to say is,FUCKYOU WEBBER!and madlove baby's mummy for booking a hotel room us and treating me to Universal Studio(:although me and baby had a little arguement on some stuff but nevertheless did we spoiled this memorable day(:took photos everywhere i go ,even on the rides that at one part i ''accidentally'' bought it up the Jurassic Park Rapids Adventure which i know clearly that i will be drench,yupp and so water when in to my camera and it went crazy for the next 30mins,flashing as and when,not able to delete pictures,wet battery but fortunately it came back to normal(:had a break for this three days of non working and start of the next week,work again.i really need to give myself time to pack for the japan trip this coming Friday.Please,no last mins

Pictures from the first day of F1:

Pictures on Saturday,F1 Day 2

<3lewis>

i shall post the rest of the picturews another time due to lazyness.goodnight!

work!work!work!

2010-08-31T00:14:00.002+08:00

shall summarize work for last work,
working at goodwoodpark is more relaxing and fun,we still get paid for eating and taking pictures,slacking.but the floor is 'freaking fucking slippery'.OH is tougher and more cb people that only know how to use mouth only.school started and first day never go school already,ohgosh!what a start for my term.damnit!

iloveyou

2010-08-24T23:26:00.002+08:00

didnt blog for such a long time ,just feel like deleting all previous post and start a fresh blog but again,they are all memories so im still deciding whether to delete them anot.

i dont really have anything in mind to post so shall just update alittle about myself recently.
firstly,i've change my bb to pink!whick cost me 30bucks plus.
school have been more fun and lively,work starts end of this week!meet-up-with-baby session will more lesser&lesser but hopefully blogging will be more often(:

tired!

2010-08-24T00:27:00.001+08:00

spent the whole day redesigning my blog skin so i shall post a longer one tomorrow(:

2010-08-03T00:15:00.003+08:00

drifting further and futher away from each other,
byebye to my LG crystal and HELLO blackberry bold!

fuckit..

2010-07-24T01:00:00.004+08:00

didnt intend to blog in the first place until i read her blog,of all the couples i know that her boyfriend are in ns all had quarreled about the girl finding him and he only know how to sleep sleep sleep.but why can they just be so understanding for this point ?they are tired,so are we right ?sometimes but not alwasy right ?cant every couple just be equally treated ?bitch,thats what you call me,i have feelings too.

am i wrong ?i said message me "as soon as possible" not "now".what is there to fuss about ?i know you're not in a good mood,i didnt say i want a answer now right ?as soon as you've got the answer you could just massage me,it was just like a note left for you,if you are busy then cant you just speak out,how would i know ?i know i said before that i'll stay by your side forever but that doesnt mean i'll be pysically by your side 24/7 right ?what makes you think i know that your busy or free (*question mark!?)why must you always think negatively why make yourself feel so miserable,why cant you just think on the posstive side,it would just make you happier for once right ?and please dont provoke me,it can really make someone go crazy,i say no means no!you know me,what i want means i want,what i've said means i already mean it.not going back means not going back,stop provoking me and asking me to enjoy and everything when you know i wont.if this really continue i'll really go crazy.

i know,she said yes to you on the phone cause i ask her to,dont blame yinghong for not bringing me out cause i ask her not too.do you know how far isit to walk all the way in,and out just for you ?!

can someone just define the word 'LOVE' to me ?i really love you,yet i dont know what does love really mean ?am i just a failure in love ?

BABY's birthday post!

2010-07-20T23:28:00.014+08:00

a short summary of babys' birthday celebration.
~with babys' close friends,omar and azzam!
~with desiree and jiamin!
~lastly,with babys' family!
saturdays' celebrate was just a small gathering but effing fun!
a tower of beer and lots of jokes/chitchat!
we were like snatching the peanuts like no tomorrow,refills after refills.
but vomitted due t):o too much gas i guess.
pictures of celebrating with baby&darling below!
BIG present from jiamin and desiree,GRAVEYARD!
and a bigbig chocolate cake!
jiamin's hapiness was my tongku!
laughing around while baby drank up his GRAVEYARD! but when we were heading home,here comes the tongku.baby vomitted like no tomorrow,there goes his first hour of birth DAY.
but i guess it was a really memorable one.
lastly!celebrated with babys' parents(its always very stressful)at some fucking stylo italian restaurant,ate some oranged flavored spaghetti&beef,lychee mint smoothie!didnt take any photos as didnt dare to find the right time):
and lastly saying happy birthday to baby again!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

baby cut and took picture all by his own(:haha

baby's birthday cake!

ballet!!!!!!!

2010-07-05T00:35:00.002+08:00

~didnt learn my lesson,still wore heels for ballet and my leg hurts like no tomorrow!
~coach says big improvment for me so at least all my hardwork&aching paid off!
~happyday for Carlers today.
the end .
photos of outing with Yinghong on facebook!
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=702371499

BORED!

2010-06-29T20:05:00.002+08:00

the colour of my fucking hair fading from dark brown to this!
waiting for baby to meet me now.
BORED!BORED!BORED!

typing damn slow with fake nails.

2010-06-28T16:17:00.009+08:00

24th

26th

accompanied desiree to hougang mall for some eye/contact lens check then over to pasa malam to have our dinner.

typing damn slow with fake nails.

2010-06-28T16:17:00.001+08:00

2010-06-23T02:11:00.000+08:00

somethings wrong with my blog!

2010-06-20T23:34:00.015+08:00

...after so loong!i finally uploaded all photos of the pass few days.

after make up lesson with ciyue!

photos taken in pajamas,bought 2 sticker name card with baby on wednesday at tamp1.
really love my NAMEE!'Carlers' was like a wrong spelling from young till now,so if there is time will head to immigration Building to change it!

16june,last minute trip to malaysia for a walk.

bought shoes,clothes and contact lens.

drew on mummy's leg the other day with her make up!HAHA!

17june,movies with baby in the nights w

why must i talk to you ?

2010-06-16T22:56:00.005+08:00

you are fucking right,***jie,if its not for baby,i will not even fucking bother to talk to you lah , please lah,limbu not anti-social is just that i wont want to have such a friend like you in the future.i want the best for me and baby,i dont expect pefection but atleast a 99.9% so i dont need you to be the 0.1percent thanks.if you can please find someone else,maybe someone your size,fuck!looking at your sweaty face in the arcade just makes me feel like puking,what makes you think i still wanna talk to you and please you may like to taptap people around but please,not me so keep your filthy hands to yourself.if you read this you may think that im just a warrior typing this just infront of the computer then let you know,you not happy with me just come only.i'll be waiting,immatual pre-adult fucker!if i could,i wont even want baby to have such a friend as you.

why must i talk to you ?

2010-06-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

寶貝對不起

2010-06-15T20:45:00.003+08:00

feel like having this as my blog song is fucking cute but is like mummy's genaration song like that so give me your comments quick!majority WINS!

the song is at my title,lovves.

2010-06-14T21:17:00.003+08:00

hey sillys',due to my wherethefuckismycameracharger mood so didnt feel like blogging,but today is different cause after weeks i finally found my CHARGER~woots!hahas,got blessed with many this last week & today.

will take many pictures tomorrow with Desiree&Ciyue!and will upload as soon as possible!

2010-06-07T01:12:00.002+08:00

In car on the way for ballet.

helped paint my home door just now.

pictures above proven to be true.

2010-06-02T00:17:00.012+08:00

Sakae again!

taken at hougang plaza while waiting for pool table!:D

should i still bother ?

2010-05-28T00:10:00.007+08:00

took me quite a long time to decide how to start blogging.actually until now i still dunno so i should just get to the point.i really dunno if i should care anymore.i used to experience something like you and after we overcome it,i see the same thing all over again.fine,since you already made up your mind and said you wont regret.now i only can say takecare and pray that none of thing will happen again.

today was crazy,school uniform-home clothes-school uniform-home clothes!
and decided on HOME CLOTHES!went down serangoon meet baby and off to baby's family clinic.receptionist was friendly unlike my family doctor,damn guailan!doctor the same,always friendly.backed to baby houe after that to rest and slack and backed to home sweet home!
watching 'shrek forever after' and touring at the new island resort hotel tomorrow!hope things wont turn out bad and really PRAYYYYYYYYYY that baby and i wont QUARREL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*cross fingers*

2010-05-26T22:42:00.004+08:00

school was damn boring today,exam-study-revision-study.
after school met up with jeremy louis mitchell slacked awhile thn headed home.
intented to meet desiree, but i guess i was too tired already.

2010-05-25T01:02:00.000+08:00

click on my nuffnang!
i now only got like few dollars nia.

2010-05-24T23:38:00.009+08:00

and found some old photos in the camera !!!
fucking yp!jiamindarling agreed with me!
luckily we grownup and know how to be a little independent,at least we know how to use a washing machine to wash our clothes right ?

went to at sakae again as usual then headed backed home.finally got to borrow aunty's camera which i used to be using it when staying at amk.wonder how long i can hold on to the camera before they asked back for it.so spamspam photos this few days!!!!!!!!!!!

stressed!

2010-05-10T23:32:00.003+08:00

really dunno if i wanna study again.

what maybe say is right,from 8years old till the road that i walk now was all only caused by laziness.everyone says the same.but im already trying to change,or maybe not.its been 9years but im still as lazy.i just cant help it,i really wonder when will i wake up!and study hard.

bye.

2010-04-29T12:34:00.001+08:00

fucking pictures still cant be uploaded and plus my long nails that cant really type properly,i will be posting as soon as possible but still leave a comment before you leave.bye

2010-04-23T20:55:00.003+08:00

lots to blog about today cause can finally used the computer,the laptop at home spoil until cant even on can,dont even know what happen.

ohya,and what you said is right,no one owe me nor you.
but please look at yourself before you say it to others if not it will be more of a joke.
people dont owe you girl,so watched what you are saying or doing.
i said i was fine but who kept persisting of knowing what happened.
and please you come to school to study and not to play musical chairs,who would even care if you sit center or at the side.smoking is to relax and be happy and not who owe who.im not the only one that is saying about this things.please wake up you are not a princess maybe in your dreams,but i think its about time you wake up.not happy with what i say ?beat me lah.

and baby,
you seem to lose trust on me or did you just went for a brain wash ?
when was i at plaza after midnight ?did you PI see wrong ?then i guess you should hire a better one.and watch what you are saying ?what you mean by you feel like a dog when you go out with me?just going down boatquay i will need to talk to you about half an hour just to get your approval.can someone tell me what is this ?i feel really controlled,this is not what i thought it will be.
ni da ying song wo san ge yuan wang,
di yi ge xi wang ni neng xian kang kai lang,
di er ge xi wang wo neng gen gou di liang,
di san ge xi wang wo meng yong yuan you hua qiang.
baby,i really hope that all these three wishes will come true.

thanks to darlingCJM for helping me speak to baby if not i guess me and baby will now be on seperated ways already,and i will be calling him dane instead of baby(:

photos cant even fucking be uploading,please be patient i will try to upload all my pictures as soon as possible.

2010-04-21T18:52:00.004+08:00

fuck shit.only can upload five pics.

i guess the only chioce i left is to post all the pictures on friday at amk.

fuck her!

2010-04-21T15:13:00.003+08:00

big dissapointment!thought can upload pictures today but the computer in school is fucking the lag and lessons gonna end soon.so may be uploading the pictures at lan shop later.many things happen recently but i could only keep it to myself as darling is not here with me.still trying to find friends that can really understand me besides my two baby.i really got nothing to say already so for this post i shall just have more pictures and less words.and one more thing,fuck that girl.who she think she is sia?bitch.

my VIRGIN footmall match!

2010-04-10T00:44:00.010+08:00

movies in the evening and footmall match at jalan besar stadium in the night.

clash of the titians is nice but a little complicated so had to explain to baby cause he keeps complaining that the story is wierd.cab down to jalan besar just in time for the game.Adrain and i gave our virgin experience to baby,the first half was kinda boring but when comes to the second round more stupid things happen like 2 player walkwalk also can clash with each other like WTF ?your eye grow on your ass uh ?now then i know singapore team players concise of japanese,angmos and the pure singaporean are most malays and only a few are like singaporean/chinese.one funny thing that i could remember was when this guy behind me kept cursing at the players and shouting.''JAPAN SEND YOU HERE TO FALL DOWN IS IT !''see..im not the only one that things that these players kept falling for no reason.used to keep scoulding at the goal keeper ''goal post so small also cant guard properly.saw the goal post just now it wasnt that small actually.sorry to all goal keepers for all the cursing about your skills please blame it in the fucking camera.haha.

Pictures for now.

this japanese kid there are effing cute.

look like tiny little football players.

forgive me for the few photos' only as i was more concetrating on the game.

ohh.andandand!2 more days and babys' gonna go in NS already.and what is the first thing when you think about NS!BOTAK!

so accompanied baby to serangoon shopping centre to shave this head.

took photos' with bb before his hair cut,the place fucking look like a store room but at least its

cheap.

END PRODUCT!

my VIRGIN footmall match!

2010-04-10T00:44:00.001+08:00

driving me crazy!

2010-04-09T00:07:00.005+08:00

what is everyone thinking seriously,if only i could read your mind.
mummy suddenly went nuts.luckily baby didnt really made me angry in the night,if not i really wanna jump down building liao.
plans change tomorrow no wildwldwet but football match is UP!*girls,i think you should know why cant touch water, don't you?*okay... ...stupid redred stuff spoil the whole plan.but escape still on this saturday,anyone ?

fucking father!

2010-04-04T23:19:00.003+08:00

mummy always says daddy is crazy just dont care about what his saying but i guess this time he his gone too far.all this while he acknowledge me as just a DOG!wtf ?is he even my father anot ?

will be going to thomson plaza must week to continue on ballet lessons.
i guess mummy will be damn happy!cause she has been nagging about wasting money letting me learn ballet for more than 11 years then i suddenly say want take a break.so mummy dont worry will be going back after the holidays.
cant wait for baby to come stay over tomorrow for the week.

2010-04-04T01:03:00.002+08:00

a kiss for baby before he goes in 8days time.
we'll treasure every moment from tomorrow om as baby i gonna stay over for a week.
-went for church service today,the drama was good as it was really different from the past 3 years.
it was more to the 20th century,soon after the service we headed down town to look for adele and *kelly(i think.. ..)shopped,mum mum.then over to hougang plaza for pool session.

10 more days!

2010-04-02T00:16:00.004+08:00

10 more days and his going to be in camp,

gonna miss him to the max!

his plan for this 10 days is already full!only sundays left so BROTHERS!SISTERS!FRIENDS! of Danetanjinghann is you wanna book him please be quick.tickets selling fast!!!!HAHA!

his plans for this week!

(2/4)Friday- sleeping

(3/4)Saturday- church with me in the afternoon and dinner at Raffles Hotel with relatives.

(4/4)Sunday- FREE!

(5/4-8/4)Monday- Thursday-Staying over at my house(saving money.)

(9/4)Friday- mailto:Wildwildwet@%20downtown

(10/4) Saturday- mailto:Escape@%20downtown

(11/4) Sunday- FREE!

(12/4) Monday- Report@ Pasir Ris inter???i think

Stitch my love!

2010-03-23T01:53:00.003+08:00

Baby's not feeling weel so didnt meet today.

-last minute pool with desiree&CJM!

-sweep the whole damn house today!

continued... ...

2010-03-22T00:11:00.009+08:00

bloodrelated brother!

woots!

2010-03-21T23:12:00.014+08:00

finally got found my wire and can upload pictures already.

althought some of the photos are like a week ago but still have to upload cause is take with laogong de.

1st Anniversery present for Baby.(already done and passed to him already)

his my pretty boy<3

photos taken in hotel with baby.

at tatoo shop.

sorry!

2010-03-21T17:04:00.002+08:00

excuse me for not blogging as imwaiting for pictures first then blog one nicenice one(:
and do leave a comment in my Guestbook!(:love you guys<3baby too!

2010-03-09T22:43:00.002+08:00

If you argue with him,you're heard-headed. If you're quiet, you don't care.
If you call him, you're too clingy crazy. If he calls you, he says you should be happy.
If you don't love him, he'll try to win you over. when you do love him, he leaves.
If you don't fuck him, you're a tease. If you do, you're easy.
If you tell him your proplems, he says you're irritating. If you don't, he says you don't trust him.
If you lecture him, he just want to argue. If he lectures you, it's because he "cares".
If you break a promise, he doens't trst you anymore.If he breaks it, it's because he has no chioce.
If you cheat, he expects it to be over. If he cheats, he wants another chance.
They're basically the same.
Guy drink to forget about girls; girls drink to think back about the guy.
When guys are in love they become poor; when girls are in love they become pretty.
Guys can forget, but can't forgive; girls can forgive but can't forget.
When guys are heart-broken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl.
When girls are heart-broken, they try to find his characteristics in another guy.
Guys wish to be her first love, girls wish to be his last.

Found this from google,damn cute.
it talks alll about guys(:
i only agree with some of the sentence.haha:D

i feel so fooled!

2010-03-09T18:38:00.003+08:00

baby called me today and told me everything,cried in school for almost the whole day.
he said that something my mum told his mum,so now we cant be together already,but low profile but i really dont understand what happen seriously.baby,iloveyous!hope to see you as soon as possible.
history is like repeating all over again,this kind of things used to happen months ago.
hope that this time it wont take too long to go back.
and i will keep my words on not saying that BIG word again.

feel rejected.

2010-03-09T18:38:00.000+08:00

2010-02-18T02:40:00.002+08:00

went to drink at element yesterday and our poor desiree babe was damn seh and did alot of illy stuff,didnttook any pictures from yesterday but jiamin did took alot of pictures(107pictures)reason for not appearing in most of the pictures was either busy preparing,busy singing or busy doing my own things didnt really have the mood to take picture yesterday.

CNY eve!

2010-02-15T18:06:00.005+08:00

dine at liang court for reunion dinner had a great view of the fireworks.

photos taken with brother/sister/cousin:

bainian!bainian!bainian!

2010-02-15T16:13:00.014+08:00

mummy side relatives came over our house today bainian.
later going amk hub watched movie with mummy,overdue pictur on friday.
oh yeah didnt tell you readers what i did on friday,went swimming with clique and boyfriend.then bb see peopl fly kite then he also want so changed our plan from movies to kite flying.nette and boyf came down farmway find us also.then did alot of funny stuff.
pictures:

My doggy kite!

found some pictures when bb ton at my house.

AND HE KEEP CLAIMING HIS PRINCE CHARMING!

2010-02-14T18:00:00.002+08:00

at lan shop now with cousins.manage to run out of that place,is damn alot of people can ?so many relatives,so little angbaos.
not fair!mistook my uncle as my bb,they suddenly look like the same person.mistake him twice somemore.maybe i miss bb too much.his in genting now enjoying himself i guess and hope his okay with his paents already.bye

2010-02-09T22:50:00.000+08:00

i took more than 4hours to finish up this blog skin,keep doing until almost done the dont find it nice already.hope this one doesnt disturb me anymore.
found photos from few weeks ago.i just i forgot to posted it up.

sick!

2010-02-09T12:22:00.012+08:00

sheesha with wanting and desiree on saturday,pictures finally uploaded
gek xim on saturday cause i lost my ballet necklace but got it back already.
dont ever try mixed fruit sheesha its awful!hahas.
nothing to say much,vomitted alot yesterday and head was cracking.
i shall let the photos do the talking.

supperclub!

2010-01-31T15:28:00.002+08:00

yesterday rushed home from amk back to hougang changed and head down to toni and guy with jiamin&desiree,dana came down later.2 weeks ago meet up with 2 toni and guy student,they asked us to be their model for a show at supperclub.so we all sat there for 3 hours plus doing our hair and make ups.then all when up the bus to supper club didnt know must catwalkat the dance floor there larhs,if we know we wont go down already lo.nevermind its wasnt that embarassing anyway.then slacked for awhile,quarreled with darling for awhile then we ead down to serangoon to slacked with his friends then go backed home.
photos will be shown later cause due to the computer prob then cant rotate the pictures so it looks damn ugly,but if you want to see photos you can go to jiamin or desiree's blog(:

2010-01-26T00:06:00.002+08:00

wanted to post photos but due to *nonono time*
only here to say about some bitch!
darling,keep hearing you say you abit regret slapping and everything but now i think that slap was damn worth it luh.
fucking bitch!this i for you.
blame ourself for being fucking stupid to believe what you said about coming to to talk out all the misunderstanding.please luh for goodness sake if you wanna play this kind of game dont play with us cause 'ni wan bu qi wo men de'.get it straight in your head.
nights

2010-01-03T21:15:00.003+08:00

HAPPYNEWYEAR!celebrated with deardear's relatives at clakequey&with friends at boatquey.
(:tomorrow first day of school again,hope everything will be fine.first day of school in simei ite stressed!havent paid school fees yet think they will still let me pay tomorrow ba.uniform,shoes,books everything still havent buy.school says tomorrow then buy so need wear polo and jeans
p.s
hope that deardear can wake up on time tomorrow to bring me to school. for the day.okay going to have some early sleep now.nights

2009-12-29T02:27:00.002+08:00

wanted to blog few days ago about my miserable christmas eve.
buti guess now i a little too late so just a brief on how i spend my christmas with hubby,nette,weijin,weian,dion and guoliang.
here it goes,decided to go clubbing at alcova with them and samantha but in the end packed like fuck so was like full house then go old market eateat wait for people come out then can go in then heard from hubby's friend that got fight so they chase all out and only 18 and above and go in.so see got other nice places to go,walkwalk to the hongkong bank there slacked for 1hour plus at the road side to decided where to go then headed down to party world and found out that $268 till 6a.m which is like four hour only.damn*bo hua*so slack at the bus stop again and think for 1 hour plus again of where to go,then decided to head down to boatquey element,unfortunately,some stuff happen at 3rd floor which makes us cant go out so headed but again.
p.s/saw samantha at element too.wonder if she went in to alcova earlier on.
slacked again at the staircae beside BQ.by the time it was like 4plu and everyone didnt even have the mood to celebrate christmas already.so we headed to srg mac to celebrate christmas with mac breakfast(:the only thing i can say for this year's christmas is F*CKING UNLUCKY!

TODAY!
went for the ITE interview and managed to get in to beauty monday start school le,sian.overjoyed!but forgot to bring my report book there at first then they saw no choice have to have it so cabbed backed home just to get the report book and head back to SIMEI.wasted like 20plus bucks for nothing.plus,today is wifey&hubby's 9mths together already.9 months has just pass soo quickly.3 more months and it will be our 1 year anniversery!cant wait!
nights.gotta go for xray and checkup tomorrow for school.
signing off,wifey.

2009-12-23T20:23:00.004+08:00

its been like ages ever since i blogged cause was busy with stuff.sort of working and going out.so being able to blog today is because mummy grounded me at home so blogging just came to my mind.should not have went out yesterday and the day before lo.then today can go songka with sist and bro's and of cause my hubby.wanted to blog about what i did the past few days but sadly too much things to do until forget liao.few pics from the past few days.

hubby is just soso adorable(:

hubby's candid pic!

hahas.hubby asked me to tickle his leg with a no ink pen,but i secretly drew on his leg.
pardon me for the ugly drawing cause was giggling while drawing and racing against time.x.x
*he chua sai*

this one too!
p.s got to rush of to buy my shoe at far east tomorrow to match my dress.damn!

2009-12-15T01:51:00.003+08:00

no cash recently equal to staying at home.LOL!
havent meet hubby for 2days already,*misses him.
will be meeting him tomorrow after *erhemm*.maybe in the night ba.time spend with him now is damn little cause i've got things to do.need to go out earn money for us.woohoo.
went to 313 to shop with parents yesterday.bought a top from honey and bee.
(:shall post some pics that took yesterday.
bye.

2009-12-10T16:32:00.002+08:00

many came across between us this few days,we quarrelled,cried,did silly things,hugged,kissed,spend time together,plan for our future.and it only EARNING MONEY FOR THE FUTURE!how?only me and hubby knows.hahahs.hubby,i will work very hard for our future,during this time it will be very hard for us but its all worth it in the end.so lets work hard now and enjoy life together next time.i know you want me to change and be mature you no longer want me to be that little girl that only wants to have fun and slack everyday.i want to change and i will change!i want to be a USEFUL PERSON AND THINK ABOUT THE FUTURE WITH YOU!the only thing we want now is money!we dont want to depand on our parents already!they already got enough problem for themselves already we dont want to give them anymore problems.
MY QUOTE!
word hard.thinking for the future

pissed!

2009-12-02T14:43:00.003+08:00

at daniel house now.
btw,first time bloggong at his house.
was damn pissed off yesterday,baby said to go his house after going bb so headed to his house and see no one there which made me pissed and seeing his phone at home made me more pissed!so no where to go until evening so headed to daniel house slack and seeing him there make me fcuking pissed!angry can ?i mean if you are not at home you can at least text me not to go there and go somewhere else right ?i walk all the way to your house then daniel house,when i was there you just look at me and went back to sleep.the whole time i at daniel house i was fcuking the hot okay.luckily daddy bought me to malaysia and bought manymany things things for me.woohoo~but mood changed when i reach singapore again.damn!really feel like talking to him clearly as soon as possible.bye

IMISSYOU!

2009-11-29T23:10:00.003+08:00

just came back home from suntec with family,decided to go out with parents more recently reason being?NO MONEY!hahas.
heard many shocking news from sists' recently like ... ... ... ...
FINALLY!danedane is back in singapore!really misshimmuch!<3Gonna meet him tomorrow.
nothing much to say already.
nights!

he says i didnt change.

2009-11-27T22:38:00.003+08:00

actually suppose to go out today but no money so decide to go out with parents.
im already starting to miss him,2more days to go and he will be back from genting.went marina square today with relatives,pleaded zhihao to catch the christmas stitch for me but failed many times so he catch 2small christmas stitch for me,1zomble stitch and a shinny one.hahas thanks bro!really love ya to the max!more this sunday okay?hahas.ate hotpot with jiahui and friends too.wanted to watch mulan but no suitable time available.no photos taken today cause dont really have the mood.
signing off.MISSHIM!<3

2009-11-27T03:34:00.003+08:00

went to daniel house today again and over to mac in the night.
meet up with dane again,it seems like everywhere i go he will be there.happy to see him.
then headed to 304 to eat our dinner.then back to daniel house and there goes one day.
backed at home chatted with danedane on msn.im really sorry for what i did and i really regreted i just know that the hurtful words i said to you that day is still in your heart.i know it takes time to forget everything and trust me again,i really wish that the one who was hurt deeply was me and not you.i dont want you to suffer in my hurtful words.his going off to genting tomorrow for 3days will really miss him,he asked whether i want him to get anything for me.but the only thing that went round my mind was only wanting you to come back as soon as possible.i will change for you,i hope that you can forgive me soon.its going to be 4a.m and waiting for baby to wake up go genting then sleep.iwill reallymisshim.trying to find a job by tomorrow or the next day.i really need to change my life style,quiting on smoking soon and eating more everyday.hope that you will see a change in me soon.

what is mine will be mine,
what is not mine will never be mine.

REGRETS!

2009-11-24T23:50:00.005+08:00

backed from daniel house,you asked me go your house pei you i go.i asked you come daniel house pei me and you said see first and never replied.what is the meaning of that seriously,if you didnt want to meet you then cant you say it to me and not give me any false hope.i really had enough of false hope already,i dont want to be anyone's reserved its really very hurtfull.im really not in the mood to go anywhere now.so sists' really need you guys too spare soon time for me(:this is the picture that has made me smile even at the worse point of my life,seeing the smile on our face really makes me feel happy.i really wish that we could go back to those times.

although its not very nice but i really love this picture.
this is the first time me peace in a picture with me.
i hope everything will be fine by tommorow.
nights.

SONG:(爱太痛)

2009-11-24T00:18:00.002+08:00

when daniel house in the afternoon as usual,slacked for awhile and headed to a thai ang gong shop at joo chiat sitted there and waited for 2 to 3 hours and headed backed to daniel house slacked.hai~thats life.bored!i really dunno how to carry on life like this.is damn boring.

2009-11-22T01:29:00.003+08:00

headed to daniel house just now to slack awhile.intended to go down revzone with nette and yeetong but nette went to watch movie with wejin and yetong say there damn cold so dont want to go down.so i just had to rot there when in to the room slept for awhile as awake by his sound i really dunno why?headed out and took a look but he already went down to buy dinner.thanks to him for the dinner!really happy cause it has been a long time since he treated me just like his wifey.i was really damn full already as i ate before i went out but i just stuff everything in the my small stomach.after eating slept awhile,sabbie came down to pei me and talk awhile and headed to the bus stop to find her boyf.i headed home with mummy too.said so much to her but she only know how to side danedane,side abit or say facts is okay but is like every sentence you say is side him can ?hey!im your daughter or he your son sia ?LOL!danedane!you good!por mummy until like that.going sleep now if not tomorrow cant wake up for church.(:

2009-11-21T00:40:00.003+08:00

went shopping with mummy today at fareast,many memories there as *we* used to always go there to shop.bought a new bag and a pants.then bused back to daniel house slack but nette and sists' wait too long already so say go up first later when i reach thenh come down again but dua me then in the end i walk from the bus stop alone then meet me with him.damn shock can ?then chated for quite sometime then sent him home spend much time making him to sleep the headed to daniel house again.less then an hour saw him at daniel house the first thing that come in to my mind is.knnbccb!fuck!i spend almost 1/2 hour and see you at same place again.LOL!chated awhile more then headed home.no matter how long it takes i will still wait for you.i guess having our status now as friends is quite challenging and fun too.but hope things will turn better.going to sleep now have swimming tomorrow morning.

2009-11-19T00:37:00.010+08:00

when up to daniel house today again to slack.hoping to enjoy myself but things happen.so as usual cried like fuck again.i really cant take it seeing him hugging someone else.which he claims to me that he is single.could not carry on staying there so headed to reevezone.sang songs,teared,smoked&slack.got really a big shock when i say him there too.everyone is asking me to forget about him but i really cant,i dunno why.seeing everyone drink makes me feel like drinking too but,nette keep por me to drink i know if i drink he wont know but a promise is a promise i promised that i wont drink anymore i dont want to lie to myself too. so i just drank ice water throughout,cabbed home with nette and the rest headed to BQ,i know he said not to contact him during this week but i really cant take it and he he replied i didnt enem bother to pay the cab fare and read the msg,hahas the cab driver just stare at me as i replied back,i dunno why but i can read that only msq over and over again,i know its just two sentences but i can just feel warm by reading it again and again.even if we are now friends but i still leave all my wallpapers and everything with his picture on,i really dont bare to take them out so this is what i really meant about i cant forget him at all.
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you know i still loveyou.

this picture makes me look like im wearing contact lens.

2009-11-18T00:20:00.005+08:00

many things happen this few days.actually i could happily patch back with baby but a choice that i made change my whole life.a choice that made me lose the one that i loved most the one that have been beside me for more than 7months the one that had trusted me and yet i still dissapoint him.talk to him yesterday and all i can do is only asked for forgiveness but i know he cant forget what i did.what he say was right,what is done is already done.the only thing now is let him forgive me.i am willing to take care of him for the rest of his life,but is he willing to let me do that.i really dunno.you said that i didnt trust you that you are single?i want to tel myself that what i saw today was a lie but can i do it ?does he seriously love her ?many questions are going around my head.is he really single or attached ?only one thing i can say is ILOVEYOU 1314 the only thing i wish is for you to forgive my mistakes.i really dont have the guts to face him.what i did was really wrong,but i seriously know my mistakes already hope you really understand.i havent eat a proper meal since monday.i know everyone is asking and forcing me to eat at least abit but i really dont have the mood and appetite.giddyness i running into me recently.but still went songka cause i didnt have a choice was moody for the whole day.sitted outside daniel house just smoking and crying,even when i hear jokes i didnt even laugh much.headache is getting worse towards the night,went songka and headed back to daniel house.kept drinking water until vomitted.it has really been a long time i feel like that.i guess this time i really feel heart broken.six more days to hear his answer,every minute i will be thinking what you will say.going shopping with limin and nette this thrusday i really dunno whether i will enjoy myself.everything i do reminds me of him even the route that he walk with me home,the bed that we slept together the tears he shed for me.even the small things he do i will always remember.the spaces in between my fingers are only for you to hold them tightly and never letting it go.im really sorry dane.please forgive me.iloveyousforever<3

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